PS: I love listening to Marathi Songs. Sometimes there are songs I relate to and derive the meaning for myself, related to what I am doing… This is one such song by Shri Sudhir Phadke… and it goes like this….
**Aakashi zhep ghe re, pakhara
sodi sonyacha pinjara**
For quite some time I have been thinking of becoming a freelancer. I want to write. To be a professional writer, trainer. I also have the requisite skills and motivation. But, I also have a job. A job that provides me monetary and emotional stability. The reason behind why I get up every morning. And yet it restricts me from what I want to do, to become. And so I call it my “sonyacha pinjara”. A golden prison! Yes!.
** tujbhavati vaibhav, mayaa
fala rasal milate khaya
sukhalolup zali kaya
ha kuthvar vedya ghesi aasara **
At the end of every month, this job provides me a fat 😉 paycheck and all the luxuries associated with the paycheck. I can eat the food I want, and shop for the things I desire.
Along with monetary stability, it is a source of my status, of what I am. I often wonder, what am I without what I do.?
But for how long will I be happy with these luxuries. At the end of my life when I ask myself what I have achieved, will these be counted as my success? Years of working and creation of wealth……for somebody else?
** ghar kasale hi tari kaya
vish saman moti chara
mohache bandhan dvara
tujha aadavito ha kaisa, umbara**
What I consider luxury today, is it luxury at all? Rather it is the poison that is slowly but surely sucking out all my creativity, motivation and drive to succeed.
When I spend close to 12 hours being associated with this, is this how my second home is supposed to make me feel?
And yet every morning I find myself reluctantly pulling my self out of my home to come to office.
** tuj pankh dile devane
kar vihar samarthyane
dari, dongar, hiravi raane
ja oalandun ya sarita, sagara **
I have the knowledge and the capability to go after my dreams. I know my direction and the path I want to follow. That is where all my efforts and determination should be directed towards. I should take up the challenges and face the world.
** kashtavin fal na milate
tuj kalate, pari, na valate
hrudyat vyatha hi jadate
ka jiv bichara hoi bavara **
The road is not going to be easy. But then the dreams that I am running behind are also not ordinary. What saddens me sometimes is the fact that even after knowing all of this I still continue to do, what I have been doing and take no efforts to change the situation I am in and end up creating unhappiness for myself
** ghamantun moti phulale
shramdev ghari avatarle
ghar prasannatene natale
ha yog jeevani aala, sajira **
Just think of what all can happen once I break free from this prison! My efforts will bear fruits, my performance will not be fitted into the bell curve of the company, I will get all the benefits of my work, and satisfaction of doing what I like. I will celebrate each day as if it was an occasion!
What am I waiting for then? Break free my friend…Break free!
sodi sonyacha pinjara…..sodi sonyacha pinjara!!